Tick tock....
So my doctor said that before I could schedule my next appointment and make a solid new game plan that both my husband and I needed to get more blood work and I needed to get an ultrasound. DH got his blood work and I got my ultrasound (transvag...YAY....NOT). So now I'm just waiting to get my blood work done, which has to be done on day 3 of my cycle. That's a little over two weeks away. Hopefully once I get that done I won't have to wait too long to be able to be seen. I hate it when you can only get an appointment a month out. Come on father time and pass on by!
Here I go again!
Okay, I know that I'm putting the cart before the horse because I haven't gotten complete confirmation that we're going to be doing an IUI (the doc just said that is most likely what we'll be doing), but I like to know everything as soon as possible and I like to over think and over worry. So this post if for the ladies that have done everything before me... What do you think of IUI's? What was the experience like for you? What can I expect? What's the prep and procedure like? I know my doctor will explain all of this when we get to it, but I would like to here it from you guys.
appointment
Well... I'm not pregnant. I had a really hard time with it. I thought for sure that I was and allowed myself to get excited. AF came and I had a really difficult few days. Now I'm back on track and re-focused.
Today I met with the new infertility doc. I like her and the appointment went well. Unfortunately I have to back track a little bit and she wants to repeat my labs that I did with the last doctor and do another ultrasound. I HATE transvaginal ultrasounds! Oh well, it's necessary and worth it in the end. She also said that (pending my lab results) we will most likely be doing high dose clomid with an IUI. Before this appointment I pretty much knew that my only other option was going to be IUI or IVF. I was nervous about this because my insurance doesn't cover it and I thought it was going to be way too expensive for us to be able to afford. Thank the Lord IUI's will only cost us $110 per session. That's still a lot of money, but at least it is manageable and not in the thousands like IVF. So now I just need to wait for my next cycle so I can do the blood work.
Today I met with the new infertility doc. I like her and the appointment went well. Unfortunately I have to back track a little bit and she wants to repeat my labs that I did with the last doctor and do another ultrasound. I HATE transvaginal ultrasounds! Oh well, it's necessary and worth it in the end. She also said that (pending my lab results) we will most likely be doing high dose clomid with an IUI. Before this appointment I pretty much knew that my only other option was going to be IUI or IVF. I was nervous about this because my insurance doesn't cover it and I thought it was going to be way too expensive for us to be able to afford. Thank the Lord IUI's will only cost us $110 per session. That's still a lot of money, but at least it is manageable and not in the thousands like IVF. So now I just need to wait for my next cycle so I can do the blood work.
I don't know what to think
I'm down in the dumps. I was so sure and so positive that this was going to be the month that I got pregnant. I've even been having a lot of pregnancy symptoms. My husband made me POAS last week and again a few days ago. I told him that it was definitely too early for that, but he figured if I was having symptoms then it should turn positive even if it's too early. Silly man. However, this morning should have been enough time and it was still a BFN. I don't understand! AF is FOUR days late and I really feel like I'm pregnant, but the tests all say negative. I'm so bummed. I've had a really tough time with it today. I cried out to God and poured my heart out to Him. I know that things are all in His timing and according to His will, but why can't that be now? Am I doing something wrong? Why if I want something so badly, and it hurts me so badly to not have it, does God not want that for me as well? I know this is something all of us struggle with and I know that tomorrow will be a better day.
Happy Day, Oh Happy Day!!!!
Bye, bye Lupron!!!! I'm so happy because Lupron is officially out of my system (ahead of schedule by the way) and I am ovulating right now! WOOHOO! Even though I got the low dose monthly injection of Lupron I was afraid that it was going to take forever for my body to return to normal and that I would have to wait a long time before I was even able to start TTC again. I read stories of some women not getting their cycles back for 6+ months. Luckily that is not the case for me! I know that I said I was going to put off TTC for awhile because of everything my body had been through and needing a rest, but who am I kidding?!?! I want a baby so darn bad and other than being really tired, I feel great now. Even though Lupron was HORRIBLE at least I didn't have to deal with a painful period on top of everything else.
Also, when I had my surgery (hiatal hernia repair) on 7/20 my surgeon was so sweet and went ahead and took pictures of my endometriosis for me. It didn't even cross my mind to ask him to do that, he just did it out of the kindness in his heart. AWWWW! I guess Lupron did its job because I had hardly any endo tissue there! That is so encouraging. So who knows, Lord willing, I just might be able to conceive on my own this month. How awesome would that be to go to my infertility appointment on 9/9 and actually be pregnant! I'm going to practice a lot of positive thinking and thankful prayer this month. I'm not going to stress or worry about it at all. I'm just going to act as if I AM going to get pregnant this month. That's what normal fertile people do right?
In additional good news, I finally got everything straightened out with my referral. Honestly the military clinic is so frustrating. Every time I called it was a different story on how I need to go about getting a referral processed. The lady that was "helping" me stopped returning my calls and then I found out that she's out of the office for awhile. So I finally was able to talk to a nurse that was willing to help and it only took sending a phone note back to the doctor explaining my situation and it was all taken care of. Now it's just up to my insurance company to approve it. I don't see why they wouldn't. They've been great so far.
So... that's me right now. I hope that all of you ladies out there are having a fabulous week and that your weekend will be even better!
Also, when I had my surgery (hiatal hernia repair) on 7/20 my surgeon was so sweet and went ahead and took pictures of my endometriosis for me. It didn't even cross my mind to ask him to do that, he just did it out of the kindness in his heart. AWWWW! I guess Lupron did its job because I had hardly any endo tissue there! That is so encouraging. So who knows, Lord willing, I just might be able to conceive on my own this month. How awesome would that be to go to my infertility appointment on 9/9 and actually be pregnant! I'm going to practice a lot of positive thinking and thankful prayer this month. I'm not going to stress or worry about it at all. I'm just going to act as if I AM going to get pregnant this month. That's what normal fertile people do right?
In additional good news, I finally got everything straightened out with my referral. Honestly the military clinic is so frustrating. Every time I called it was a different story on how I need to go about getting a referral processed. The lady that was "helping" me stopped returning my calls and then I found out that she's out of the office for awhile. So I finally was able to talk to a nurse that was willing to help and it only took sending a phone note back to the doctor explaining my situation and it was all taken care of. Now it's just up to my insurance company to approve it. I don't see why they wouldn't. They've been great so far.
So... that's me right now. I hope that all of you ladies out there are having a fabulous week and that your weekend will be even better!
I got a blog award!
Thank you Devon! I'm so honored that you thought of me and thank you so much for the words of encouragement that you given me. I received the "One Lovely Blog Award" and here are the rules:
Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who granted the award and his or her blog link.
Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you have recently discovered.
Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.
I don't know if you're allowed to pass this on to people that have already received it, so if that's against the rules or taboo, I'm sorry. I don't know a whole lot of people on here yet (I really want to change that) and some people that have already received it I really think that you have "one lovely blog" and I don't mind honoring you again.
1. Emily
2. Mommy Wanna-Be
3. Jen
4. My Journey with Endometriosis
5. Sew
6. Tiffany & Zach
7. Kelli
8. We're Expecting
9. Lindsey
I don't know if you're allowed to pass this on to people that have already received it, so if that's against the rules or taboo, I'm sorry. I don't know a whole lot of people on here yet (I really want to change that) and some people that have already received it I really think that you have "one lovely blog" and I don't mind honoring you again.
1. Emily
2. Mommy Wanna-Be
3. Jen
4. My Journey with Endometriosis
5. Sew
6. Tiffany & Zach
7. Kelli
8. We're Expecting
9. Lindsey
Tired of setbacks!
I'm so frustrated/sad! I'm not going to be able to go to my appointment on Wednesday because I've had problems with my insurance company. I have Tricare, which has been great, but to go to any specialist you need to get a referral from your primary. In the civilian world that might be easy enough, but I get seen at a military clinic and they are ridiculous!
To go off on a mini side tangent... I can't tell you how many times they have broke HIPAA laws and I don't like to be mean, but I seriously question the doctors that they have. I've gotten the worst medical advice there! You would really laugh at some of the stuff they have told me. This one doctor said that I had fibrocystic lumps in my breasts and enlarged lymph nodes due to shaving irritation in my armpits. First of all, that's ridiculous by itself, but even more ridiculous being that I had no shaving irritation in my armpits! Okay, back to my point.
I thought that my ob/gyn had everything set up and ready to go as far as my referral because they set me up with my appointment at the infertility specialist and I didn't think to ask if there was anything else I needed to do. Then I had the whole fiasco of being in the ICU and once I got settled back at home I checked on tricare.com and there was no referral. So I called my ob/gyn and they said that I need to do that through my primary. I've spoken to several people at my primary doctor's and I get a different answer every time on how I can get a referral processed. I finally was able to leave a voicemail with a woman that supposedly handles this stuff and after a few times of playing phone tag she is now not returning my calls. It would be easier to just go up there, but I can't drive yet due to a fainting spell and continued dizziness and with my husband's work schedule he can't take me there. So, now I need to reschedule my appointment and who knows how far out that will be!
The next tidbit of news is the most frustrating. Every time I get started on fertility treatments the military decides that would be a perfect time to deploy my husband. After my lap I was suppose to do two consecutive months of Clomid. After the first the military deployed my husband! I was suppose to start it again... and you can guess what happened! Now I just finished the horrible Lupron therapy and am suppose to start a new game plan. Well, we finally found out when my husband is deploying & of course it is October 1st, around the time that I'm suppose to get my cycle back after Lupron & start Clomid again. I am grateful that he's going on a 3 month deployment instead of the typical 7 month deployment, but it's still hard to wait. I should take this as God showing me that now is not the time for me to get pregnant, but it's hard for me to hear that. My body does need the rest after all that it has been through lately. I still have a lot of healing to do from my last surgery/hospitilazation. It's just so difficult! I see all of these pregnant women around me and the only thing I can think is "when is it my turn?"
I think that I will still schedule an appointment for as soon as I can and at least get what ever I need to do done and come up with a game plan so that when the hubster comes home we're all set to go. That is assuming they don't try to send him somewhere again! UGGHHHHH! Faith in God, faith in God, He's got my back! I need to stop worrying!
To go off on a mini side tangent... I can't tell you how many times they have broke HIPAA laws and I don't like to be mean, but I seriously question the doctors that they have. I've gotten the worst medical advice there! You would really laugh at some of the stuff they have told me. This one doctor said that I had fibrocystic lumps in my breasts and enlarged lymph nodes due to shaving irritation in my armpits. First of all, that's ridiculous by itself, but even more ridiculous being that I had no shaving irritation in my armpits! Okay, back to my point.
I thought that my ob/gyn had everything set up and ready to go as far as my referral because they set me up with my appointment at the infertility specialist and I didn't think to ask if there was anything else I needed to do. Then I had the whole fiasco of being in the ICU and once I got settled back at home I checked on tricare.com and there was no referral. So I called my ob/gyn and they said that I need to do that through my primary. I've spoken to several people at my primary doctor's and I get a different answer every time on how I can get a referral processed. I finally was able to leave a voicemail with a woman that supposedly handles this stuff and after a few times of playing phone tag she is now not returning my calls. It would be easier to just go up there, but I can't drive yet due to a fainting spell and continued dizziness and with my husband's work schedule he can't take me there. So, now I need to reschedule my appointment and who knows how far out that will be!
The next tidbit of news is the most frustrating. Every time I get started on fertility treatments the military decides that would be a perfect time to deploy my husband. After my lap I was suppose to do two consecutive months of Clomid. After the first the military deployed my husband! I was suppose to start it again... and you can guess what happened! Now I just finished the horrible Lupron therapy and am suppose to start a new game plan. Well, we finally found out when my husband is deploying & of course it is October 1st, around the time that I'm suppose to get my cycle back after Lupron & start Clomid again. I am grateful that he's going on a 3 month deployment instead of the typical 7 month deployment, but it's still hard to wait. I should take this as God showing me that now is not the time for me to get pregnant, but it's hard for me to hear that. My body does need the rest after all that it has been through lately. I still have a lot of healing to do from my last surgery/hospitilazation. It's just so difficult! I see all of these pregnant women around me and the only thing I can think is "when is it my turn?"
I think that I will still schedule an appointment for as soon as I can and at least get what ever I need to do done and come up with a game plan so that when the hubster comes home we're all set to go. That is assuming they don't try to send him somewhere again! UGGHHHHH! Faith in God, faith in God, He's got my back! I need to stop worrying!
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